Superstition

Sunday 30 April 2017

"I was so unlucky during that period when I was playing housewife. Everyday, I would think what to cook, and to go grocery shopping during my lunch breaks. I got so many tickets, lost half of my points, got into a car accident, and didn't get a single new client...I really wasn't spending my energy at the right places."

"Are you a superstitious person?"

"I am. I believe there are forces that are greater than our understanding and that if you go against what you're meant to do and compromise yourself, there definitely will be consequences."

Pain

Tuesday 25 April 2017

Everything worthwhile in life is won through surmounting the associated negative experience. Any attempt to escape the negative, to avoid it or quash it or silence it, only backfires. The avoidance of suffering is a form of suffering. The avoidance of struggle is a struggle. The denial of failure is a failure. Hiding what is shameful is itself a form of shame. 

Pain is an inextricable thread in the fabric of life, and to tear it out is not only impossible, but destructive: attempting to tear it out unravels everything else with it. To try to avoid pain is to give too many fucks about pain. In contrast, if you’re able to not give a fuck about the pain, you become unstoppable.

-Mark Manson

Stories, places and people that are no longer for me

Saturday 1 April 2017

I haven't felt this much sadness in a very long time.

2013 was a special year to me; it was a year of so many new beginnings. I've never asked for second chances, and I've always been proud to say I have no regrets. But today, I must admit that if I could go back in time, I know I would've done things differently. I would've been more patient and less selfish.

Today, he lives in another city, he has a wife and a kid.

I keep having these images in my head. I've always had a hard time letting go of stories, places and people that are no longer for me. One moment, I spend too much time looking backwards, and the next I'm racing to some unknown land hoping to find some answers.

I must let go to allow space for all that's for me to show up, I tell myself, but I keep contemplating and create all sorts of pain by going back and forth. I know I will always have these thoughts, I have to meditate throughout this journey, and keep my mind in a better place.

Sometimes, I think I know it all, but today I don't have answers at all.
 
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