Cross country road trip

I always wanted to drive west across the country, but every year I find an excuse not to go. The first year I got this idea, it was getting late in the season and I was afraid of snow falling soon. The following year, I moved to a new place and was overwhelmed with work. A year later, I got Dyno and he was too young for that much strenuous activities. Then next year, I was kinda decided to go, but Covid-19 hit. Last year, a lot of places were still semi-closed. This year, the USA border is still not yet open for unvaccinated people and I always wanted to come back from the USA side. I feel like there will always be a new excuse every year, and I already know what my excuse will be next year. I don't want to let this stop me from going. Part of me is excited to go on this adventure alone with Dyno, but part of me is scared of things going wrong, and perhaps that's why I delayed this trip so many times. Most importantly, I know I really need to do this for myself. 

I've worked hard this year with very little time off, and all my mandates are ending at the same time. Life is giving me a sign that I should go. It's also going to give me some time to reflect on the most important decision of my lifetime, which is that of becoming a singe mom by choice.