Happy

It's as unexpected as finding car keys that I thought were lost months ago, as mundane as finding a 5 dollar bill on the floor, as silly as finding a parking spot when it's busy, as simple as having breakfast with friends on a Saturday morning and as unpretentious as a rainbow in the sky. Today isn't any special day, but it's my birthday...just feeling like life is smiling at me today :)

I miss tax season

It's tax season, but I'm not doing taxes anymore.

...not sure why I miss those days working until late hours with my team, getting on each other's nerves, telling pathetic jokes in an attempt to make each other laugh, our trips to Starbucks, eating ordered pizza in an empty dining room, looking out the window from one of the tallest skyscrapers in busy Montreal on a cold evening.

It is one of the reasons why I've quit...but those might also be among the many moments I miss most.

Noonmark

I've been wanting to do this little mountain for a while. I heard plenty of good things about it. Although it is not one of the highest peaks in the Adirondacks, it offers some great views. I finally decided to go because it's winter and I don't want to climb anything too steep, so I figured it's the perfect timing.

I must say that I never had so much fun going down a mountain...we almost slid all the way down, haha. It could have been dangerous hitting a tree or a rock, but we managed to get out of this alive. I love winter hiking!

Oh, and the gorgeous mountain in the background is Giant, which I've hiked solo last summer. I plan on hiking it again this summer!

Uncategorized

One might believe he has the power to master delete people from his past, and whether this is a fight for clarity, a desperate need for a true disconnect, or a defense mechanism to protect emotion; the more one tries, the more one fails. On might have a strong will, but will never be the master of his heart.

I'm quite surprised because I know this is a sign that he cared. He's forced the ending to recognize where he stands, because he despises uncertainty. I used to think I was crazy, and I was the only one going through this...but now I know there are two of us. A man, with the good principles, dealing with a flame of madness within by behaving crazily normal, so he can go on with his good life.

I used to believe in endings as well. I guess we've all been taught as kids that stories have endings. I forced decisions; I forced situations, I forced others into a situation that benefited me. I liked to categorize and define everything I knew, because of insecurities. Life sent me signals that I couldn't read...and even as of today, I still can't recognize them...I’m slowly learning.

I don't believe in endings anymore. I will never be comfortable in uncertainty, and not knowing where I stand, but that's life, and being able to accept this is a step closer to happiness. I will always want to know, but I'm okay with not having the answer now...because I don't need to know the ending but just to know that we're all still in a race is enough.