It seems like everyone in my life is becoming toxic in some way.
There is the desperate one who uses her friends to make herself more interesting. She is self-loathing, talks about the same issue over and over again, complains everyday but never made an effort to change.
There is also the one that's been talking about accomplishing something for as long as I've known her for, anything that is passionate to her she says...(or perhaps anything that earns good money), but ends up always giving up before even starting. She never intends to grow, only dreams to become rich.
There is the one that blames his misfortune on everything but himself and projects his misery onto other people. He is hopelessly self-destructive and focuses energy on the wrong things.
Oh and how can I forget the narcissist one with enough backbone to walk, but not enough to wear some pants and use words.
Most people are unhappy, and depend on others, most don't have the resources or the options to be any different. Most never thought that far ahead. If I find everyone toxic, then maybe I am the toxic one for having no empathy and no patience at all towards my friends. Most of them have never really done anything wrong to me, but hearing about their same cycle of misery, complaints, resolutions and the reasons why they can't after all, just drains my energy. I can't deal with emotional vampires anymore.
I want to live a positive life and I don't need to be affected by their negative energy.
Most people are toxic and suck the life out of me. Most follow the rules and have too man reasons why they can't.
I'm not saying I'm immune to humanity's stupidity, because I do have my moments.
Although, life has slowed down since covid-19, I still think 2020 might be one of my best year so far...because I don't need anybody, or anything or to be anywhere to be happy. I have everything I need already and I'm only here to enjoy the ride.