Downs

I've never had so many downs in my life, career wise, friendship wise and relationship wise. Everybody who wronged me seems to be living a happier life now. How unfair that is. Sometimes, I wonder if I have a problem, even my mom worry that I have a problem.

The only explanation that I've come up with is that...my reality is fucked up but it's functional, while most people's reality is normal but is dysfunctional...that's why I'm isolated. Am I dysfunctional just for thinking that other people are dysfunctional, instead of blaming myself for what's happening?

Most women are smart, but they subject themselves to the stupidity of men. Most people are dishonest and are afraid of confrontation. Most people are dreamers blinded with comfort and just want to be accepted. The only thing I've ever done wrong is that I'm none of those.

...or should I blame it on the three wishes I made at the Ganges?

A geeky, boring and anal type of guy

"Elaine, you're a crazy and adventurous girl, why do you want to be a geeky, boring and anal type of guy?!"

"...because people who are crazy and adventurous usually don't want to settle."

Happiness in a bar

"Look at people around you, Elaine, does anybody look happy to you here?" a friend asks me at a bar.

"You're right...I haven't noticed," Some people were looking at their cellphone, some girls were waiting for people to approach them, they all seem to be waiting for something to happen...and none of them looked happy. "Why is that, do you think?"

"People are generally unhappy."

Delhi and Agra

Jumped on a train again, and this time, to Agra! You know how usually, you're not allowed to use the toilets at the station when the train isn't moving? Well in India, you're allowed to. There was so much shits on the rail when you're standing there waiting for your train, haha.

Taj Mahal! It's so beautiful and well-preserved, and it's clean...but there were still people pissing in public. The experience itself was not so great because there were so many people, and there was actually not much to see inside. From the exterior though, it's quite impressive; it's perfectly symmetrical, and it represents many cultures...I can see why it's one of the seven wonders in the world.

The next day, I took the train to Delhi, which is the capital of India. Most roads are paved and there are traffic lights here! I went to a market in Old Delhi, which is one of the busiest and oldest in India. I've never seen so many people, animals, cycle rickshaws crammed together like this in my life before. I was in this little streets, and it was impossible to walk forward....and I enjoyed it!

Some shops in old Delhi. I like how Indian people are cool with me taking pictures of them. Only a minority will give you a dirty look, but most people just don't care.

I visited the Hamayun's tumb...which looked similar to Taj Mahal, only with much less people. There are some nice architecture.

This is Qutab Minar, another nice place with so much history. The size and age of this tower is quite impressive. You really got to wonder how did people built this without the equipments we have today. India is awesome!

That concludes my little holiday trip. I hope to be able to travel to India again and see more of the south. As for Nepal, I'd love to go there for a trekking trip. I've traveled quite a bit, and this is the first time my mom strongly disapproved of the destination...but I've learned that the world really as dangerous as it seems. On this trip, I've encountered nothing but nice people, people who work hard, people who want to be happy.

Time to decide where the next destination will be!