Today

I live well.
I laugh often.
I love much.

Mom

Another convo that goes nowhere

I knew it! That's too stupid for nothing. I'm so sick of this! WHY WHY WHY! Here's another useless conversation that goes nowhere, I should've saved my finger muscles.

Txt messages:

Me: Hey **That's actually my co-worker who sent that accidently P: Who's this? Me: The one u miss the most P: Lol like who Me: I'm know all ur secrets and I'm hotter than u P: Megan fox? Me: Where r u? P: I'm obviously in ur mind whoever u are lol **Pfff yeah well, that dude knows his lines. Me: But I want you here P: Lol who are u?? Me: Wanna come out? It's Ej P: Oh its u lol, what r u doing Me: sad its not megan fox? So wanna come chill P: Where and what Me: can I call u P: Not right now I'm with my bro **That's not weird just a little. At that point I predicted that he will not txt back

3 hours later...

P: So what's up **Oh that's surprising for once... Me: Call me **and of course he didn't call, like duh!

1 day later...

P: Sorry I was on the phone with someone yesterday Me: Its alright **What more can I say.

That was so gay.

Ladies, that's the exact type of cocky guy who wants too much attention.

Gents, talking for nothing is not good for your mental health.

Only as high as I reach can I grow...

Only as high as I reach can I grow
Only as far as I seek can I go
Only as deep as I look can I see
Only as much as I dream can I be

-Karen Ravn

Oh Please

Hot boys who do their hair without washing their hands right after they peed.

Ugly boys who try to hit on the hottest girls in a bar with the cheesy pick up lines from Internet, thanks google.

Dumb boys who intensely stare at hot chicks from head to toe and from toe to head while their (less pretty) girlfriends give them the nastiest and bitchiest stare.

Shy boys who dare staring at girls' butt from behind but don't have the guts to look at them in the eyes.

Oh pleasssse!

Please please please...

(Don't you recognize yourself? Go hide in a closet, PLEASE!!)

Because he's always right and I'm always wrong

Today, as I was preparing to leave, he asked "How did you get that bruise on your leg"?...as if he cared. He didn't even say sorry about what he said last time, in fact he never says sorry for anything because he is always "right". When I think about it, I realize that he never taught me anything... nothing except screaming at me, beating me and scolding me. Then he expects me to be all those things he never taught me to be. He never taught me how to forgive, to say sorry, or even to care for someone. If I'm only a piece of garbage to him, then I'll act like a piece of garbage around him. I almost wanted to scream at him and say "None of your fuckin business", but instead I just ignored him. There is no one day I'm able to eat in peace, sleep in peace and study in peace when he's around and that's because no matter how hard I try to deny him, I still care about what he says to me even if I think everything he says is stupid. Sometimes I'm scared that's how it's gonna be forever, but there are also times when I'm so tired that I'd rather leave things the way they are and regret if I have to. I can write everything here, I can tell all my friends, but I don't think I can tell him in his face..because he's always right, and I'm always wrong.

And yes I got a fuckin huge bruise on my leg and I don't know how I got it:

It's so ugly!!

Quoting you.

I'll remember every single word you said today...

“死野獸 唔死都冇用!”

...and one day I'll recite this back to you.

Word for word.