TJ's been avoiding me these days and I'm so glad. I don't want anything I can't brink back to montreal and I don't want to miss anything either. At lot of times, it's hard to let go when things are not yet torn into the smallest pieces possible. I don't mind the consequences, crossing the line and ruining everything for an answer that I don't need, just to prove that my guesses were right, but in the end everyone gets hurt. But this time, I think I'll just leave things as they are.
I kind of have enough.
Long ass night
Saturday, 15 August 2009
Last night was just the longest night ever.
23:00-1:00: Drinking at Elaine’s place: I wasn't exactly drinking because I wanted to make sure that the barman is as cute as I thought he were when I was drunk and I absolutely didn't want to pass out before 7 am this time.
Stupid girl.
That guy speaks Chinese better than I do and that's when I know I should go back to Chinese school =(
Something smells here...
1:00-4:00: Club no.1 : That club was nasty that night and people were sweating over each other and they still let people in *sigh*. You’d think that more people means more choices but NO! I never saw so many ugly people gathered, maybe because I wasn’t drunk enough. We just had fun grabbing people’s ass and I got caught, but it was fun. I wanted to see the barman (Rain’s clone) but he was working at the twin club which was…gay.
4:00-4:30: Club no.2 : It was okay, but people were still ugly.
4:30-5:00: Club no.3 : Club full of stupid foreigners who think they are the shit. Horrible.
5:00-6:00: Back to Club no.2 : Whenever I don’t make it back home before the sunrise, my day will be completely ruined. At that point, I was hoping that Elaine gets tired so I can go home, but she’s just not satisfied going home alone. I seriously only wanted someone to buy me breakfast.
6:00-6:30: Club no.4 : I got into that fight with a stupid guy just because I pushed him away when he wanted to dance with me. He was so obsessed that he followed us outside, so we told the bouncer that he hit us…Elaine had enough so I had to play the drama queen and everyone was watching our show on the street. I’m glad he didn’t slap me on my face.
6:30-7:00: Wandering on the street and telling people that they are ugly. We have the right to be frustrated, okay?
7:00-8:00: That barman never calls and sends me really short messages, and only when I initiate it. So yeah, we were sending each other messages back and forth for an hour. Why does it take so long to figure out what you want to do…gosh.
8:00-9:00: Breakfast at McDonald’s with the barman. He really didn’t look like rain at all and was shorter than I thought but at least still taller than I am. That guy seriously kept staring at my chest the whole time I was eating…he thought I didn’t know just because I pretended not to see wtf.
9:00-11:00: You know the rest of the story.
Elaine was really hurt because she thought that the barman didn’t really try hard enough and I was almost begging. She thought I wasn't the empowered woman I were anymore…I guess I still am, but honestly, I just can't help being obsessed with things I can’t get. I just want what I want and I don’t care if I begged, because it worked and now I can move on to the next one. The way people define the word "pride" is really annoying and depriving. If I cared about people’s opinion, I would just stay home to avoid those stares and that guy is not my family, not my friend…just a random dude. You think I care?
CIAOOO~
23:00-1:00: Drinking at Elaine’s place: I wasn't exactly drinking because I wanted to make sure that the barman is as cute as I thought he were when I was drunk and I absolutely didn't want to pass out before 7 am this time.
That guy speaks Chinese better than I do and that's when I know I should go back to Chinese school =(
Something smells here...
1:00-4:00: Club no.1 : That club was nasty that night and people were sweating over each other and they still let people in *sigh*. You’d think that more people means more choices but NO! I never saw so many ugly people gathered, maybe because I wasn’t drunk enough. We just had fun grabbing people’s ass and I got caught, but it was fun. I wanted to see the barman (Rain’s clone) but he was working at the twin club which was…gay.
4:00-4:30: Club no.2 : It was okay, but people were still ugly.
4:30-5:00: Club no.3 : Club full of stupid foreigners who think they are the shit. Horrible.
5:00-6:00: Back to Club no.2 : Whenever I don’t make it back home before the sunrise, my day will be completely ruined. At that point, I was hoping that Elaine gets tired so I can go home, but she’s just not satisfied going home alone. I seriously only wanted someone to buy me breakfast.
6:00-6:30: Club no.4 : I got into that fight with a stupid guy just because I pushed him away when he wanted to dance with me. He was so obsessed that he followed us outside, so we told the bouncer that he hit us…Elaine had enough so I had to play the drama queen and everyone was watching our show on the street. I’m glad he didn’t slap me on my face.
6:30-7:00: Wandering on the street and telling people that they are ugly. We have the right to be frustrated, okay?
7:00-8:00: That barman never calls and sends me really short messages, and only when I initiate it. So yeah, we were sending each other messages back and forth for an hour. Why does it take so long to figure out what you want to do…gosh.
8:00-9:00: Breakfast at McDonald’s with the barman. He really didn’t look like rain at all and was shorter than I thought but at least still taller than I am. That guy seriously kept staring at my chest the whole time I was eating…he thought I didn’t know just because I pretended not to see wtf.
9:00-11:00: You know the rest of the story.
Elaine was really hurt because she thought that the barman didn’t really try hard enough and I was almost begging. She thought I wasn't the empowered woman I were anymore…I guess I still am, but honestly, I just can't help being obsessed with things I can’t get. I just want what I want and I don’t care if I begged, because it worked and now I can move on to the next one. The way people define the word "pride" is really annoying and depriving. If I cared about people’s opinion, I would just stay home to avoid those stares and that guy is not my family, not my friend…just a random dude. You think I care?
CIAOOO~
I met Rain...the clone
Thursday, 13 August 2009
I went back to that bar where I puked few days ago and they probably recognized me, but it doesn’t bother me as long as the tequila shots are a dollar each. After that we went to the club and there was that hot ass barman that looked exactly like Rain; big muscles, nice ass, chinky eyes and cute smile…and I got his number with my naked face. As most of you already know, I cannot put on make up because of my surgery. At first, I wasn’t going to do anything but then Elaine said to me: “What a pussy you are, make eye contact”! So I did and it worked; he dropped a glass. So we just started talking and he was giving us free alcohol, so how the hell can I say no. I got really drunk and Elaine kept abusing him. I told him to call after work, which is around 7 o’clock in the morning. I asked him: “Do you meet lots of girls at work”? He’s like….”no”. Haha he’s obviously not going to say: “Yes I do, and you are the 100th girl that got my number tonight, congrats miss”, but he actually looked like he doesn’t…
So yeah it was 6h30 when I lied down on my bed and I was thinking…I’ll just take a small nap, when he’ll call, I’ll get up…but I just passed out. I knew I wouldn’t be able to wake up if I fall asleep but I somehow thought I would be able to make it with the dose of alcohol in my system. He texted me at exactly 7 and I can’t believe I missed it!
So yeah it was 6h30 when I lied down on my bed and I was thinking…I’ll just take a small nap, when he’ll call, I’ll get up…but I just passed out. I knew I wouldn’t be able to wake up if I fall asleep but I somehow thought I would be able to make it with the dose of alcohol in my system. He texted me at exactly 7 and I can’t believe I missed it!
Reunion of Elaines
Wednesday, 12 August 2009
To make it clear, Elaine is also the name of my friend and I don’t have an imaginary friend.
Elaine and I met again earlier this week. She is the most liberal girl I know; she is quite open about everything. I can tell her the nastiest things I've done without filtering and I like hearing her stories too. We were thinking about going to the Philippines or Thailand together, but I'm so broke I don't think it will happen =(
I went to that hostel she stays at and we drank there with the other travellers. Everyone drank a whole lot and we wanted to go to club but by the time we left the hostel, it was already 4 am and no one realized. Someone even had the idea to drink some more at a bar before...So we went and 30 minutes later, everyone got sick, including me. I just sat down on the floor in the washroom and laid my head on the toilet bowl. Can you imagine how many people walked in and out of the washroom before me? Gosh I can't believe that. On top of this, I was in the men's washroom; I didn't really care at that point. I thought I wouldn't be able to walk, so I asked that guy next to me "Can you bring me home"? haha...He's like "Yeah, sure"! But in the end I got up. After that I went outside, and I saw Elaine and everyone else sitting/lying on the street. No one actually made it to the club...obviously.
That's her
In the end, everyone made out with everyone at the hostel, minus me because I'm a good girl.
PS.: It's feels so great to puke everything out!
Elaine and I met again earlier this week. She is the most liberal girl I know; she is quite open about everything. I can tell her the nastiest things I've done without filtering and I like hearing her stories too. We were thinking about going to the Philippines or Thailand together, but I'm so broke I don't think it will happen =(
I went to that hostel she stays at and we drank there with the other travellers. Everyone drank a whole lot and we wanted to go to club but by the time we left the hostel, it was already 4 am and no one realized. Someone even had the idea to drink some more at a bar before...So we went and 30 minutes later, everyone got sick, including me. I just sat down on the floor in the washroom and laid my head on the toilet bowl. Can you imagine how many people walked in and out of the washroom before me? Gosh I can't believe that. On top of this, I was in the men's washroom; I didn't really care at that point. I thought I wouldn't be able to walk, so I asked that guy next to me "Can you bring me home"? haha...He's like "Yeah, sure"! But in the end I got up. After that I went outside, and I saw Elaine and everyone else sitting/lying on the street. No one actually made it to the club...obviously.
In the end, everyone made out with everyone at the hostel, minus me because I'm a good girl.
PS.: It's feels so great to puke everything out!
I want your dick
Tuesday, 11 August 2009
I saw TJ last night and it was pretty cool. I wasn’t mad at him last time, I was just a little sad to remember things. We were chilling at his place, anyways it’s the usual things you know, and I’m not going into details.
He asked "What do you want from me, seriously" and yeah he was pretty serious when he asked that.
I didn't even know what to say...is there really something I can want? I'm leaving in like...3 weeks or so. It’s quite stupid to even want anything. There was that one time, I heard from a friend in common that he likes me a little but he said it's not worth investing just because when summer will be over, everyone will have to move on with their life and go back to their routine…well I least I have to. I should be happy meeting him, but it's actually pretty sad to have to say bye at some point, and you know from day 1.
It's started when we met in a bar and we didn't even look at each other, but I thought he didn’t look bad in his skinny jeans. Then at that club, I ran away from him and his friend because I didn't want to be stuck around them. We somehow got into the same cab at the end of the night and I was quite rude to him because he was just like every other perverts for me at that time. The next morning, I acted like a total bitchy princess and he tried to be patient but still got annoyed. After that, I said quite demeaning things about him on my blog and hurt his feelings. I never really wanted to see him again, but I did and got to know him better and we actually have a lot in common.
If you ask me how I really feel about TJ now, well, I kind of feel good around him and I miss his presence at times, but I don't really like him, maybe just a little and I hope I won't go crazy by the time I leave. I think I would consider him if we lived in the same city, because he is not only mature, but I also like the way he sees life.
Ok so the point is, when he asked that question, I just answered "I want your dick". That's all I could think of. Isn't that what every guy wants to hear anyways?
The end.
He asked "What do you want from me, seriously" and yeah he was pretty serious when he asked that.
I didn't even know what to say...is there really something I can want? I'm leaving in like...3 weeks or so. It’s quite stupid to even want anything. There was that one time, I heard from a friend in common that he likes me a little but he said it's not worth investing just because when summer will be over, everyone will have to move on with their life and go back to their routine…well I least I have to. I should be happy meeting him, but it's actually pretty sad to have to say bye at some point, and you know from day 1.
It's started when we met in a bar and we didn't even look at each other, but I thought he didn’t look bad in his skinny jeans. Then at that club, I ran away from him and his friend because I didn't want to be stuck around them. We somehow got into the same cab at the end of the night and I was quite rude to him because he was just like every other perverts for me at that time. The next morning, I acted like a total bitchy princess and he tried to be patient but still got annoyed. After that, I said quite demeaning things about him on my blog and hurt his feelings. I never really wanted to see him again, but I did and got to know him better and we actually have a lot in common.
If you ask me how I really feel about TJ now, well, I kind of feel good around him and I miss his presence at times, but I don't really like him, maybe just a little and I hope I won't go crazy by the time I leave. I think I would consider him if we lived in the same city, because he is not only mature, but I also like the way he sees life.
Ok so the point is, when he asked that question, I just answered "I want your dick". That's all I could think of. Isn't that what every guy wants to hear anyways?
The end.
Funny.
Sunday, 9 August 2009
It went well until he said something that I really don’t like. He said..."Just because I’m not your bitch? That’s how it works with me, you gotta give to receive and you ain't getting anything right now...so what are you gonna do, huh?". He was asking me to do something I didn't want to do. I was happy to see him until he said that...it just turned me off. I just felt like crying, but I smiled and said "Continue watching your porn" and I left. Then he said I was funny. Maybe it was funny for him.
What he said just reminded me of things from long time ago. What made me sad back then was the fact that no one believed me, not even my mom. Maybe she did, but she didn't do anything about it because she didn't take it seriously when it took me a lot tell her. What makes me sad now is the fact that I wasn't courageous to say no stop, and I still don't. Actually, what he said was probably not such a big deal to anyone else...but I felt manipulated the same way when he said it to me and that's just awful.
Fuck you TJ.
What he said just reminded me of things from long time ago. What made me sad back then was the fact that no one believed me, not even my mom. Maybe she did, but she didn't do anything about it because she didn't take it seriously when it took me a lot tell her. What makes me sad now is the fact that I wasn't courageous to say no stop, and I still don't. Actually, what he said was probably not such a big deal to anyone else...but I felt manipulated the same way when he said it to me and that's just awful.
Fuck you TJ.
Does that place exist for real?!
Friday, 7 August 2009
So Mister Todd went there (club 500) before but it was way crazy and he were drunk so we just went back to confirm what he saw was real. I can't believe I went out with my naked face and messy hair, but no one knows me, so WHATEVER!
Todd
Todd
Yoshimi is such a cutie~
I didn't know my thighs were that fat before I saw that picture
...with all my mosquito bites. So sexy eh!
Mysterious man.
Todd was trying to show off his dancing skills.
In my cave. I knew I were a nature girl.
That picture somehow doesn't look right to me...
His new profile picture.
...and I made it home way before the sunrise!
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