Lame excuses, stupid excuses

Lame excuses and stupid excuses....I hate fucking excuses. Is it so hard to say "You're annoying me" or even better "NO and FUCK OFF" ? Why do people waste their brain muscles to think of such excuses that only stupid people believe?! Oh maybe I look blonde.

Even a "I don't think so" will do. I have more respect for indirect people than those who come up with tons of excuses (a different one everytime) that no one believes but everyone pretends they do. "I have school" but we're satuday night. Worst than that: "You have exam"....waw it must take a lot to act like my mom and even my mom won't bother with that. I call that "effort-wasting" and "time-wasting" and "brain muscles-wasting".

People, advice for you here, just say no when you wanna say no because if the person you wanna say no to is some thick-skinned bitch, she'll probably never understand. Don't try to sound nice because you really sound lame and stupid!

I'm done with my rant and I'm going to bed!

You're human and she's a beast

"You're human and she's a beast. Don't argue with her."

Goodbye?

Today, I got Kevin's e-mail, but I didn't read it yet. I'm hesitating to open it just as usual, I think I'll wait a few weeks before reading it. Goshh I'm such a weirdo, am I the only one? I'm not quite sure why, but I think it's because I'm scared that he'll lose his patience one day and that he'll not care about me anymore. It's funny how I'm sort of contradicting myself because I also wish he could move on, find someone better and just be happy. On the other hand, there's still that little pinching in my heart at idea that one day he'll not care anymore. I really just want someone to care and of course I can't be selfish. Up to now, he never deceived me and never did one thing that could possibly make me mad, but I'm still scared to read that e-mail! Would it be better if I just cut contact? How do I do this? Is there a better way to do it? Should I tell him why? Or do I just disappear without a word? I don't wanna be mean, but it's even more evil to not be mean. Why am I so complicated?!

和平风

天上的和平风可会吹动到人间的心？


@Anji(Zhejiang)

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Be rough; I love pain and I can take more than you think. I don't mind crying because I wonder if I still have tears. My skin is thicker than cow skin. I like hearing lies and I empty promises. I don't mind if my heart breaks and I won't even try to hide because I'm too afraid to be unbreakable.

Don't be gentle, I can handle anything...

Sincere intentions can be selfish sometimes

You know those people who truly cares for you and do things for your good because they think that's what you need, as if they know you better than yourself. Isn't that selfish in a way, even though intentions are sincere? It seems like I'm not very thankful for what is given to me, but what is given to me is not necessary what I need. It's not as if I never made any effort...I did. I tried to explain that he's strangling me and I can barely breath, but apparently I'm too immature and I don't use my brain. Sometimes I think it's my fault for not being understanding, but I'm that selfish. I wanna be able to tell everyone that I'm oh so happy today because my dad did this and that for me, but I think I'd be even happier if he ignored me.

A hole

The world doesn't annoy me, you're the only one who annoys me. You should shut the fuck up because no one cares. What you should've done ages ago is really useless even if you decide to compensate for it now. And keep saying things you have no guts to do...because that's all you have; a hole that stinks and that never shuts. Blah-Blah-Blah!